Craving . Santa Fe, Texas Writer

by Jamie Zenteno


When I was a little girl I remember going to Big Chief {what is now Arlans} and walking out of the store with a small little now-n-later. For those who have birthdays post 1995 they were these yummy fruity chewy goodness.

I had it clinched tight in my hand and I remember that my mouth was just watering all the way to the car but  then my parents looked at me. Then they looked at my hand and it was right back into the store we went.

You see I craved that piece of candy so much that I took it without paying for it. I really didn’t think it was a big deal but apparently the honest parents that I had did. I had to go back to the cashier tell her what I did and well return the candy that I had stolen.

No candy for me. Nor and allowance that week. The brightly colored wrapper with my tiny little prize of fruity goodness was not going to be mine for a while.

That craving got me in trouble.

Flash forward to college… it was super late … about 2 am or so and I couldn’t sleep. So I did what any 21 year old young lady does in the middle of the night...…got some brownies out of the pantry and got on myspace…hey back then it was cool.

I searched this .....googled that. Looked for this person, updated my profile.

Then at the bottom of the computer screen a message popped up. The dialog went something like this:

                “Hey you’re cute”

                                Thanks, who are you?

                “Someone”

                                Oh ok, how’s it going?

                “Its going, just sitting here with my friend doin nothing. Where are you from?

                                Santa Fe, and you?

                “Bacliff, hey what are you doing right now, you should totally come over you’re up anyways”

                                …

                                …

                                “Idk…. where would we meet”

“There’s this little park around the corner of my house, meet me there and then I’ll take you to my house since its off a small little road. I wouldn’t want you to get lost.”

                Ok let me get ready.

You see what I didn’t mention was I was lonely. It was a month after a terrible breakup after a five year relationship.

I had just started really going back to church consistently, praying and reading my bible again.

Looking back on that night … I was so stupid!!! I mean so incredibly dumb!! That was the most dumb thing I have ever done in my life!!

I left the comfort of my parents nice safe house and went into uncharted territory at about 4 am.

I drove 30 minutes to a deserted park and met a stranger.  In a dark parking lot.  Near a body of water. I followed him to his house. I left at 7am.

What I would come to find out a month later after being controlled by the psychopath. . . Is that he had a gun with him.

That craving for attention, for long lost love, almost cost me my life.

There is some really awesome stuff that God gave us cravings for.

Ahemchocolate cake….jk seriously though God gave us these glorious things called taste buds to enjoy good food. . . within reason of course.

God gave us a desire for relationships. To have a desire to hang out with people that we love, like, and care for. . . . even people that we don’t know.

But you see just like when I shared those first two stories with you sometimes when our cravings do NOT line up with God’s word it costs us. It hurts us. I sometimes almost costs us our lives.

Lets go to 2 Samuel 2-5:

While you’re getting there let me set this up. This “mid-life crisis” time for King David.

2-5 One late afternoon, David got up from taking his nap and was strolling on the roof of the palace. From his vantage point on the roof he saw a woman bathing. The woman was stunningly beautiful. David sent to ask about her, and was told, “Isn’t this Bathsheba, daughter of Eliam and wife of Uriah the Hittite?” David sent his agents to get her. After she arrived, he went to bed with her. (This occurred during the time of “purification” following her period.) Then she returned home. Before long she realized she was pregnant.

So he is romantically involved with Bathsheba and he’s like sweet got away with that! And then she sends a message to him and David is all OH SNAP! She’s pregnant!

 Well the story goes on and one of his soldiers were killed in battle. So he then sends for the wife of the killed soldier. Mid-Life crisis #2!!

So in verse 27 it says:

                “But God was not at all pleased with what David had done”

So what were his consequences of craving these women

           -His first son would die

-His other son would betray him,

-He would be physically abused and sent death threats

-His only daughter would be raped by her brother and abandoned

All of which were things that God did not really want to happen in the first place.

But if there is one thing that God really wants to see in you....is to crave him.

To have a passion so deep for Him that no matter what this world throws at your that passion that craving that fire for God will never stop or burn out.

Lets go to 1 Peter2:2: 2 Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation

He loves you and He only wants the best for you. I really hope that you come to the point that you are seeking Him with your whole heart not just half of it.

When that craving for God becomes a reality nothing else in this world can compare to the blessings and love that He has for you.

-Jamie Zenteno w/Women Simply Thriving